rumble

assalamualaikum

i just having a conversation with my eldest brother.yup,life is getting harder and harder day after day.no doubt on that.i don't know why i feel like my tears are flowing down the cheeks even though i try to remain cheerful  at that time(very fake).but it is not a big problem by the way.

well,since raya is getting nearer although we haven't cross the ramadhan yet, my big brother dah start pening with those raya stuff in a way of duit raya.it just because of the name and the reputation.how he needs to double up his working hour to give us duit raya.huhuhuhu.

nahhhhhhhh,i told him"kalau orang nak bagi kita ambil,kalau taknak bagi takpa,they would understand,if not,buat tak tau saja.the point is back to our niat.kalau just about reputation,baik tak payah,pahala pun tak dapat nanti.baik sedekah duit dekat rumah anak yatim.lagi bagus"

i know,my brother sincerely nak bagi,but somehow he realized that he couldnt afford it.

being the eldest in the family and the eldest grandchildren,well,he has big responsibility la kan; to show a good example to the others.living in KL somehow is troublesome.money is needed here and there,even the toilet.huh!

okla,i dont know why i am ranting about my brother.owh yeah,got my point.it is about bersyukur or to be grateful.

ok,kita kena bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada.tak kisahlah kalau perkara itu hanya la sekecil mana.bukan wang yang menggunung,rumah yang besar,kereta yang banyak atau jawatan yang tinggi.

well,rezeki itu ada di mana-mana,Allah dah tetapkan setiap orang ada rezekinya masing-masing,it needs our effort to reach it.make sense kan :-)

well,rezeki doesnt mean money by the way.it can be translated as a chance or anything.

early this morning,my junior called me.she asked about her grandparent who had acute urinary rentention,with tense and globular bladder.they failed to insert the catheter so he needs further intervention.somehow it give some reflection to my life.i never realize for being grateful of what i have.i never realize that urinate or BO give some significance to our life.what if you having constipation for a week.or urinary rentention?horrible kan.u cant go here and there,feeling the consistency,u might avoid to drink as it might further distended your bladder.i have seen one case like that during my attachment.very pathetic.

kesian kan.so overall we need to bersyukur for what we have.

till then,

salam

p/s:personal development is important in other to become a  good person :-)

buang bayi

assalamualaikum,

alhamdulilllah,just finished reading the 11th commandment.awesome!u cant resist yourself what happened next after next.from a page flipping to the next page until you realized that clock struck at 12 midnight and u haven't touch your academical books yet.

now i realized that i cannot resist my self to know the ending of the story,dulu ingat malay novel je yang tak boleh stop,perhaps it was because of the story line yang sangat saspen!

by the way,last night,i had a conversation with my friend.we came cross to a topic of buang anak.well,we have seen lots of single parents in the ward,married or not.and surely the bad stigmata will cross the mind.ops!but thinking on the positive site,we should support them actually.maybe they had committed the sin (et:sex before marriage) but they do not throw themselves into the hell again as they will deliver the baby safely(insyaAllah) and at least the foster parents will be taking care of the baby.lagi bagus dari buang bayi yang tak berdosa tu.it opens my eyes laa about that!

and one more,she said that we should be thankful and grateful for our parents.memangla sometimes kita memberontak bila kita kena marah,merajuk or everything.but sometimes we never realize that kita bukanlah tergolong dalam anak yang terbuang itu.kita bersyukur sebab kita takde ibu bapa yang nak buang anaknya.

and she said malaysia mungkin dah maju setapak ke hadapan dalam pembangunan,ekonomi(walaupun harga minyak naik) but sebenarnya kita semakin jauh ke belakang,ibarat di zaman jahiliyah apabila pembuang bayi berleluasa.kalau dulu hanya bayi perempuan yang ditanam hidup-hidup,sekarang dah tak kira jantina lagi.so siapa yang teruk?kita atau orang dulu?

well,i never think about that part pun.thanks for opening my mind!

jeffery archer

for the past two months, i have been reading his collections.highly recommended for those who like thriller novels.those are the novels that i read,and currently im reading the 11th commandment.and ijat baru beli another 2 of his books which is Kane and Abel,and Not a penny less not a penny more.review mcm best sebab kaitan dengan money and politics.hahahaha.unfortunately,since school bukak,i dont have time pun nak read the book.very pathetic!looking for the free time baby!!