escapism!

one,
currently,im not happy with my task,yes,unhappy :-(

two,
im sad,i want to spill,but somehow they are busy,preoccupied with their own stress.where to turn?

three,
which one is better,understand others or you want people to understand you?

four,
people always think they have  a very heavier burden on their shoulder,being narcissistic,people should understand them,without understand ayat 2:286

im sick of these people,im trying to understand them,i have my own stress,sometimes i need to spill but when the time comes,i would lend my ears for them.it make me ponder that they suffer more compared to me.
therefore,Alhamdulillah.i learned from them!

i heard about this quote this morning

"lupakan musibah,tetapi jangan lupa pengajaran darinya"

sweet kan?

btw,dengar la motivasi pagi dekat radio IKIM every monday to friday around 730-800 am.bila rasa pagi tu kurang motivasi,at least bila dapat boost insyaAllah ok sikit.better dari tak semangat seharian kan :-)

random!

dulu-dulu pernah dengar tazkirah yang bila dekat akhirat,Allah akan tanya apa yang kita buat bila muda instead of bila tua.dulu tak pernah fikir kenapa nak tanya soalan macam tu,until one day,bila encountered an osteoarthritic patient.mungkin ada reason sebenar Allah nak tanya,but logically Allah tu Maha Adil,surely Dia akan tanya apa yang kita buat bila muda instead of tua.ye la dah tua,nak jalan pun tak larat,nak solat pun susah.sakit lutut la,kena solat duduk,nak pergi solat dekat surau pun susah,sakit nak jalan jauh.itu tak termasuk lagi urinary incontinence associated with sphincter laxity,tambah bila nak sujud or rukuk time solat.semua tu problem orang tua.So mungkin sebab tu kut.yeah,Allah Maha Adil :-)

ok,btw nak cakap ni,my study group dah start aggressively since last month.so we did some mcq,meq and osce questions selain dari clinical.so sapa2 yang nak buat soalan meq,or osce kami,mintaklaa.soalan tu buat sendiri or some cedok2 dari past year.so mungkin takdela ikut standard exam,buat rasanya tak kisah kan kalau nak refresh otak.so boleh la minta dekat munirah,kakpah or anis duha.depa rajin nak foward2 ni.hehehe

ok,assalamualaikum :-)

rumble

assalamualaikum to all,

i never know what is IMAM MUDA.i heard about it but i have no idea what it is all about.until one day,i was you tubing and key in "imam muda".my window popped out the winner of that programme,Imam Muda Asyraf.he is superb.MasyaAllah,SubhanAllah.

whoever is the imam,the important is the content that u want to deliver.wether it can open our heart or not.(but back to hidayah is milik Allah).tapi kalau the way they deliver the content macam sesetengah khatib or penceramah yang baca teks,mata pun boleh tertutup.public speaking memang penting :-)

and one more,last few months,i was infected by a virus spreading my sibilings.they love to read books and currently minat dalam sejarah tokoh-tokoh islam terutama karya Abdul Latif Talib.paling menarik kisah salahuddin al-ayyubi dan sultan muhammad al fateh.but my parents said,kalau setakat minat membaca tapi tak ambil pengajaran dari kisah tu,takde kesannya.Tokoh-tokoh tu patut dijadikan contoh.dijadikan sumber motivasi,as a reflection in a way to become a good person.paling tersentuh kisah umar abdul aziz,bagaimana dia sangat memberatkan amanah yang diberikan.

kalau nak baca,bacalah kisah sultan muhammad fateh,salahuddin al-ayyubi dan umar abd aziz.boleh rasa nak menangis,sangat bermotivasi dan buatkan kita kagum dan sedar everything is back to Allah :-)

rumble

assalamualaikum

i just having a conversation with my eldest brother.yup,life is getting harder and harder day after day.no doubt on that.i don't know why i feel like my tears are flowing down the cheeks even though i try to remain cheerful  at that time(very fake).but it is not a big problem by the way.

well,since raya is getting nearer although we haven't cross the ramadhan yet, my big brother dah start pening with those raya stuff in a way of duit raya.it just because of the name and the reputation.how he needs to double up his working hour to give us duit raya.huhuhuhu.

nahhhhhhhh,i told him"kalau orang nak bagi kita ambil,kalau taknak bagi takpa,they would understand,if not,buat tak tau saja.the point is back to our niat.kalau just about reputation,baik tak payah,pahala pun tak dapat nanti.baik sedekah duit dekat rumah anak yatim.lagi bagus"

i know,my brother sincerely nak bagi,but somehow he realized that he couldnt afford it.

being the eldest in the family and the eldest grandchildren,well,he has big responsibility la kan; to show a good example to the others.living in KL somehow is troublesome.money is needed here and there,even the toilet.huh!

okla,i dont know why i am ranting about my brother.owh yeah,got my point.it is about bersyukur or to be grateful.

ok,kita kena bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada.tak kisahlah kalau perkara itu hanya la sekecil mana.bukan wang yang menggunung,rumah yang besar,kereta yang banyak atau jawatan yang tinggi.

well,rezeki itu ada di mana-mana,Allah dah tetapkan setiap orang ada rezekinya masing-masing,it needs our effort to reach it.make sense kan :-)

well,rezeki doesnt mean money by the way.it can be translated as a chance or anything.

early this morning,my junior called me.she asked about her grandparent who had acute urinary rentention,with tense and globular bladder.they failed to insert the catheter so he needs further intervention.somehow it give some reflection to my life.i never realize for being grateful of what i have.i never realize that urinate or BO give some significance to our life.what if you having constipation for a week.or urinary rentention?horrible kan.u cant go here and there,feeling the consistency,u might avoid to drink as it might further distended your bladder.i have seen one case like that during my attachment.very pathetic.

kesian kan.so overall we need to bersyukur for what we have.

till then,

salam

p/s:personal development is important in other to become a  good person :-)